Country music star and six time GRAMMY winner Carrie Underwood chats up her family life in Marie Claire’s June issue.

“We were never a huggy family. Or a ‘let’s talk it out’ family,” Underwood says in the new issue. “I’m not a mushy person at all.” According to her, the fact that her siblings are much older than her means she was raised almost like an only child. “I’m a little more selfish, a little more independent, a little closed. I do wish I were softer. I wish I were able to form relationships better,” she admitted, adding “But hey, I mean … I’m not a sociopath.”

Regan Cameron captures the sizzling blonde behind the wheel of life in hot pink.